ok to be overwhelmed

There are times.. 

When all of this..

just 

overwhelms me..

somehow…

you are not shocked..

are you.?

yah..

so I just keep telling myself..

but then.. 

I do..

I know.. I now

have this monster in my brain

tormenting me

and 

messing with my thinking

and there is a whole 

LOT to 

think about..

but trying to NOT think

isn't exactly working.

and in all honesty

and ok..

a little of the 

sleepy tired too..

it's normal..

it's NATURAL

it sucks..

but.. 

God PROMISES me

and you for that matter..

THIS

and I have to hold to that..

when all the diagnoses pile up

and all the school stuff piles up

and all the construction stuff that ..

didn't get done

and the re moving in

is overwhelming us

and didn't get done..

I have to remember

that what I think of my life right this moment in time

really isn't what matters..

and HE is the kind

and loving

and gentle

when my head rages in pain

and my home is loud 

and messy

He is full of grace and patience

when I feel failure overwhelming me

His words 

are what I cling to

they are my 

heart

my love 

it's that …

That I cling to..

Because He is sovereign over this 

GRAND Adventure…

and It's HIM that I am holding on to 

and His words and promises..

holding fast.. 

because really..

that's my only option

right?

 that and bursting into tears ..

occasionally..

which I tend to do..

on occasion..

It's ok..

to be overwhelmed while overcoming

so much

at least that..

THAT 

is what I keep telling myself.. 

sure is a

good thing

 I have 

God on my side

and my God..

is such a Good and Gracious 

and LOVING God